Yes! I admit it! I am a binge thinker. My thoughts just seem to take off and have a mind of their own. It’s not just negative thoughts, they can take off in a positive fashion too. Sometimes they are just plain silly. All the same, I binge on my thinking. Several times a day.
Blogging has been helpful for my thought binges. It has been a long process to get here, but this time is different. Yeah, I know, many people say that and fall off the face of blogsphere. JackSht-Gettin Fit posted about that just this morning. Escape from Fat, A guest post on MizFit, and the original post at Confessions of a Compulsive Eater , all were discussing binge eating. That is what sent me on my binge thinking today.
I use to try and rein in my thoughts. But I always kept them private. I held them inside for years. I progressed to journal writing. It became my purge first thing in the morning. I took my first risk over 5 years ago and got very active in blogging. I stuck with it for quite awhile and struck up a few friendships. When things in my outside life seemed to put a halt to some big dreams, I let it go. I thought of my online life separate from my real world life. As I reflect back, my binge thinking took over. No more dreaming for you. Time to be realistic. Face the fact that this is what your life is.
Fast forward to a year ago. I Something was missing. I was not happy. I thought it was my weight. I realize now, that is what I used as my excuse. Last year, was my year to curb my binge thinking. This is the year for action. Blogging helps.
When I first blogged all those years ago, because of my roller-coaster self-esteem, I took comments or lack of comments as a reflection of me and my writing. It was safer in my journal – I could be honest with myself without the risk of being judged. It’s hard, when your self-esteem, talks you out of being who you are. You just want to be accepted and heard and loved for the person you really and feel comfortable in your own skin.
I woke up this morning feeling a bit of that uncomfortableness. I didn’t have any spinning thoughts, had no clue what to write about. That felt a little empty. Instead of staying in the uncomfortable stuff and the emptiness AND instead of turning to food, I went and read other blogs for some inspiration. That is one way that blogging helps. For me, it sometimes is the release of thoughts but on the other hand, sometimes it is the release of someone else’s thoughts. Like the balance of healthy eating and exercise, blogging is a give and take. It helps to curb the Thinking Binge.
I took comments or lack of comments as a reflection of me and my writing. It's hard, when your self-esteem, talks you out of being who you are.
Really good post & the above hit home with me. Sounds like you are on the right path! Keep it up & be good to yourself!
Thx for visiting today!
I related to this post so much. I have always been really insecure about my writing and that comment thing can get to me too. I have figured out that I just need to write for me but it is hard to divorce myself from caring. Thanks for the insights!
I really enjoyed your blog. I have been having a hard time with blogging, not sure how everyone finds the time and I guess I'm not good at multi tasking (Facebook, Twitter & Blogging) and so many blogs that I have been finding like yours look amazing and are wonderful reads which makes me really insecure about trying to get my words onto paper and not sounding like a idiot. Anyway, I really enjoyed your blog so I hope you don't mind me posting your blog on mine. Thanks for blogging!
Excellent post. I'm a binge thinker too. Blogging definitely helps.
Julie Thanks for the mention!
While I'm not or never have been a binge eater, I've noticed that because I write about weight and health issues I started to watch what I eat more. Not in a bad way but I think twice about what I'm putting in my mouth.
So I'd agree blogging is a great way for anyone to get their thoughts down on paper.
Plus its better than writing in a diary in that you can get great comments and support from others online.
Good for you for not turning to food this morning. Blogs can be a great source of motivation.
Stopping by from SITS!
I'm also a Binge Thinker. But I move towards the negative thoughts more than to the positive ones. But yes, blogging does help a lot. However, I find that when I'm too busy, I no longer have time to think. (Maybe I'm just a little *too* busy if I can no longer form coherent thoughts…..) I miss blogging. Haven't written in a week.