Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Up Until Now!
Boy, its only been a couple of days, but I have missed my blog. Not the writing part, but missing the comments and reading other blogs. My daughter’s computer caught a major virus last week. I was unsuccessful in saving her data. I got the computer back up and running but it is like starting all over again. I let her take my laptop because it was mid-term crunch and that was a priority to me.
But such is life. Do you have anti-virus protection? Do you run daily updates to your software? Do you back-up your computer? If your computer crashed, would you lose everything? Who would you turn to, to help you out? Do you have a plan in place or would history repeat itself, if it happened again?
The same goes for your weight loss efforts. Does history have to repeat itself? Are you back on a “diet” that worked for you, at least for a short time, just to get the scale to read a certain number? Or are you taking the part of the plan that worked and merging it with new things, new ideas, to create something just a little different.
My daughter gave me a Mother’s Day card when she was a teenager that thanked me for teaching her that the sky could be green and the grass could be purple. That has stucked with both of us for all these years. She had me do a rough sketch of that scene about a year ago and got a tattoo from that rough sketch. We joke about how if I had known that it would be the base of the tattoo, I would have drawn it perfectly. She wanted the tattoo to represent the rough sketch with the imperfections.
Part of my imperfection is routine. Routine is difficult for me sometimes. I like creating new things. I like challenging myself and then moving on. The routine has always seemed boring to me, and often unimportant. I like to change it up. But that is not working so well for me these days. After all these years, I am finally seeing why I didn’t like to fit into what I thought was the norm. That is not how my life was as a kid. The norm was scary and full of disappointment and fear.
But that doesn’t have to be how I continue with my life. I am seeing that the planning AND the routine is what will help me to be successful. I need the routine. Instead of trying to change my history, I need to change my future. It doesn’t matter what the past was, it is what the future holds for me. So, my new affirmation is “Up until Now!”
Up until now, I chose food to fulfill me. Up until now, routine bored me. Up until now, exercise was something I HAD to do if I wanted the scale to move. Up until now, well you get the picture.
What is something that you can change by using the phrase, Up until now?


Good reminder about saving files and preparing for the worst. It is a little like this weight-loss journey, isn’t it? If you’re not careful, you can lose everything.
Nice post, Jules.
March 9, 2010 at 11:02 amThis post hit on many levels. My PC crashed – and burned – in October. We had the anti-virus but no back-up and lost practically everything. Lesson learned.
The weight’s the same – how many times will it take me to lose the same weight over and over until I fix what’s wrong. Good analogy. Oh, and “Up until now, I used to look outside myself for the answers.”
March 9, 2010 at 11:10 amGreat post Jules. Computer stuff is my hubby’s life & business so I have built in help. Without him, I hate to say, I would be lost! He has saved other people’s live & files & protects us!
Analogy is perfect too! I love that you taught your daughter that the sky is green & the grass purple. My mom was the creative type but got caught up in being a mom as a lot of women did way back then even though she had a college degree. My dad was more conservative & I think she wished to fight it a lot of her life… the conservative part, not him!
Like your new motto & changing the future! I best try to do that too!
March 9, 2010 at 1:23 pmGreat post! I love the story about your daughter’s tattoo.
Up until now, I have procrastinated making my health a priority. But not anymore – my future is becoming healthier and stronger each and every day!
March 9, 2010 at 7:34 pmJules:
Thanks for stopping by and offering your thoughts on THIRTY. I did not know it’s one comment per 10 – 15 vistors! What a heartening stat. I would say: Up till now, I have always exhausted myself by setting *almost* unattainable goals…whether they be personal or professional, I sometimes forget to sit back and smell the roses, enjoy the moment, celebrate small successes, and forgive myself for the *many* mistakes I make. Up till now I’ve been my own toughest critic…and really, aren’t there enough people willing to do that job for me…Thanks for the food for thought!
March 9, 2010 at 9:03 pmWow, what an eye-opener. Up until now, I was too lazy to get out and exercise (and get virus protection!) Time for things to change.
btw I come to you via your comment on Suzanne’s blog. I very much agree with everything you said. I’ll be back!
March 9, 2010 at 11:52 pmI have lost everything (harddrive crash) and STILL need reminders to back everything up.
and to refresh and be sure my antivirus is up today.
What can I say? I learn the hard way
March 10, 2010 at 6:00 amUp until now, I chose to work in jobs that don’t fulfill me. Up until now, I chose to starve my body even at a lower degree. Up until now, my life has been devoid of passion.
March 11, 2010 at 10:09 pm