Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Question of the Day: What If

If you have been following me for awhile, you know that Wednesday’s are What If’s and Wishes.  Jamie’s wish prompt, as it so often does, was MORE than PERFECT today.  What do you wish to envision? I honestly wish I could envision myself 50 pounds lighter.  And honestly, my goal I set for myself, What if  lost 50 pounds by my 50th birthday?

I have been talking about this for awhile now.  Yes, I do believe it boils down to the attitude.  I believe in positive thinking, visualization, affirmations, follow your heart and follow your dreams.  My path of What if’s has, thus far, is taking me on a journey that I just would not have imagined.  A journey of learning more about ME.  From no excuses to letting things just happen, to believing in me, to pursuing my creativity. My garden and its special lessons seem to have a magic all its own.  Sunday, I saw clearly, just how much I have taken my body for granted.  And that special experience on my walk Sunday with the “right” songs at the “right” moments.  Today’s wish and What if are more of a practical nature.

I wish with all my heart and all my might, that I could envision myself 50 lbs lighter at 50 years of age.  The mirror just fogs over at this point.  It does boil down to no excuses, letting things happen, believing in me PLUS pursuing my creativity.  My answer to this:

Act as if…. Whatever is holding back that picture, I need to stop trying to figure it out.  That often is the stumbling block for me.  Trying to search out and find the answer.  I don’t have the control over that.  But I DO have the control over my daily actions.   My practical answers.  The ones I often fight.  They don’t seem like they are as fun or exciting as the creative or spiritual ones.   This isn’t a contest or just a challenge, anymore.  This is my life!

So while I wish to envision myself different on my 50th birthday, I will keep doing what needs to be done, until the picture comes into focus a little more.  A blank canvas doesn’t have to scare me anymore.  I don’t always have to be able to “see” the end result.  I just need to take it one day at a time, put forth a full effort, trust myself, believe in myself, AND the picture will just paint itself.  I am betting, it will turn out better than I could ever envision it, anyway.

Next week, is a whole new path for me.  One that will help me to start to “see” things in a much different light.  Thus far, I have learned, I need support.  It is okay to ask for help.  But the most important thing I am learning is that I don’t have to see the details of the big picture before I start.  I need to start and take the practical steps each and every day.  No days will be perfect, but they will be perfect for me as long as I keep moving forward and don’t give up on myself.

What do you wish to envision for yourself?  What is the one thing you wish to see but honestly, for the life of you,  haven’t been able to?  Who could you ask for help and support?  What if you had no more excuses and just started?

Tuesday, July 20, 2010