I wanted to learn to move beyond my morning pages.
For years, at least 20, I have been devoted to morning pages. Yes, there have been breaks but my collection of workbooks and brightly directed journals are the chronicles of my life.
The first step, as in any significant change, is to acknowledge it, voice it, and make a plan for change.
This change seemed the most difficult challenge, as my morning pages and the entire Artist Way process is my connection to my spirituality.
As the tagline of the book states, “A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity”.
The largest obstacle was changing how I thought about it, how I had relied upon it, and the myths I told myself about the connection between morning pages and pieces about myself.
As I am a morning person, I start my day writing, in the stupor between subconscious and coffee generated thoughts that I awake with. I consider this my morning meditation as the movement of my hand forms words without my control.
The biggest realization for me, was learning it isn’t always the bad habits that keep us stuck, it can be the good ones too.
The first steps to changing was writing in the mornings, was keeping the habit as it was, with only one, tiny, small change; highlighting a couple of sentences that popped out at me each morning. The next day, I would focus my writing with those highlighted sentences, so the process changed.
It dug deeper, it wasn’t random, and it wasn’t ignored.
Next step was to begin to take action, still one at a time, tiny steps to change. I substituted the morning haze with guided meditations and simple stretches for my body to get the blood flowing. If there was time, I would THEN write. If not, the writing would be done on my lunch break.
What happened today was a total surprise to me.
I awoke to a colder, foggy morning. In the fall and winter, the cold and damper weather makes for aches and pains within my body. One in particular was my right hip. It felt “out of place”. Instead of the morning pages written about my aches and pains and how to keep my thoughts focused on the “positive energy” I needed, I found myself with thoughts of my Wii. The reminder of what I discovered a couple years back.
A lot of my aches and pains stem from my body alignment, my balance favoring one side. The wii fit test shows how you favor one side over the other. I was amazed at that factor. Today, I am back to that original out of alignment even with the Yoga practice. That is, I guess, what can occur when you have an at-home practice and no one to “show” you that your form, while you think it is good, may be an illusion.
Then, as I played some balance games, participated in the Yoga & Strength Training workouts, the truth of my last few years, my inconsistent, back and forth, jump in full force, retreat and derail slowly, came to the forefront.
“Feeling out of place” is simply being disconnected from who you are ….mind AND body. We can focus so much on the creativity we lose sight of the body OR we focus so much on the body we lose sight of the creativity. The “spirit” of who we truly are isn’t something we can change. It is only the behaviors mental and physical that can be changed to align more with our spirit.
That time spent with the Wii was the ADJUSTMENT I needed. My aches and pains subsided and I enjoyed the little steps forward rather than the leaps and bounds that my morning pages often produce and yet keep me stuck.
This is only the beginning stages and I sense there will be more to this story but for now, I want to know
Do you have habits, which are considered good, that can keep you stuck?